Me and My family

Sometimes it's really easy to forget how much you love and need your family. They can obviously be very frustrating and annoying among some other things. As I type this I am at a bk playground with my fiancé sitting beside me looking like he's about to shoot himself, a 14 year old sister that is waaayyyy to cool to be here with us, my brother that is 12 and loves loves LOVES to annoy the little one any way he can but is the only one that plays with her, and finally the youngest maritza who is 5 and obnoxious, way too loud, annoyingly curios about everything she sees, and happy all the time except when she's told no(; 


Even though they make me soooo angry, and trust me they do, I don't know what I would to without them. Every time I feel bad or I'm crying they always try to cheer me up. It may not always work and they might accidentally make it worse but hey at least they try right? 

When I left  home and moved in with my fiancé I would cry for the longest times because I missed my family so much, even my mom who I didn't get along with very well at the time. Now we have an awesome relationship and I'm very thankful for that because I don't know what I would do without her and her advice even if I don't always agree with it. She is a great mom and I'm so thankful for all the sacrifices she made for me especially since she was a teen mom.

The most absolute annoying thing that i hear often, having been undocumented for 19 years of my life, is that my mom is some sort of criminal for bringing me to the US. It makes me very appreciative that she came here at the age of 18 with a year and a half old baby and became a successful womyn (you will see this word often since this is how i and some other people write it, it basically means a strong independent womyn and come on girls we don't need men in our lives so why should we have them in our noun?)


Any who i don't want to go to far out into my brain and thoughts and the way i see the world! so to sum it up i love my family and i am so thankful to god for giving me the chance have an amazing family. We should all appreciate what we have even if its not what others have because there is always someone out there who has less than you!<3

Helloooo Blogging World!

Well where do i start? i guess my name would be a good place right? My name is Ana Sosa. Short and simple and quite frankly a little boring but its mine and i have grown quite fond of it. I am 19 years old and will be 20 in April! 
I am engaged to an awesome guy! I have pretty much grown up with him. Yea i know some of you are thinking that i'm way too young or whatever else but i love him and after 3 and a half years its not that much of a surprise.We have not set a wedding date as of now. we live together and of course have some struggles and are still trying to figure all this stuff out. 
You will be seeing or rather reading about how we and our relationship continues to grow. I have had a somewhat crappy life and have gone through a lot of hardships from being to sexually abused to being undocumented and other just normal growing up things. 
Basically this blog will be for me to find myself and grow! My biggest goal in doing this is that hopefully other people will be able to relate and begin the healing process within themselves as i am trying to do. For those who haven't gone through anything like what i have this could be something to show them the things that can go on in the lives of others. 
HOWEVER that wont be all that i write about i might write about being scared and nervous about going to court and the next day i might just write about having to give my puppy, misty, away)': or anything else that might just pop into the pretty little head of mine! Umm i don't know what else to say other than this is me and my life(: i hope that this can help or entertain or whatever it may do. I hope you guys enjoy(;